It seams as if every time I start working in one direction I find myself wanting to go in another. It is almost aggravating how many different routes my life is going right now. In every one of those routes I am in a roller coster of emotion and thought. Like today for example... I almost blew up the house after I found out that what I had been working on for the last 3 months just went down the drain... Like that disaster with the ceramics piece without being able to make it again. My heart sank for about 2 min then I found myself so happy to be with a friend that really just wanted to just hang out and be in my life. It was so nice so we sat and did not worry about a thing until it was time to go and when I got back... BOOM the problem within the business... and then school enters the equation which takes my already sunken heart and pounds it into the ground... and then it gets lifted by a call from a friend or some good news about the business... which then reminds me of the success I will have... which gives me an idea that is literally so blatantly obvious its just stupid! The idea just makes me happy to think that I am getting all of this and am doing pretty good at keeping up with it. A moment of peace and knowledge that everything is going to be alright... and then an understanding that I am up at 2 AM and have school in the morning and realizing that I will be a zombie for the next couple of days because of it.
Heck this is my life at this point now time for some decisions to focus a little more on some priorities and understand that everything I have now will always be there whenever I get back from were ever I am going. I am 21 years old with nothing really to tie me down and a mind that will take me farther then anything I have imagined yet. Its time to not just be but to live! Heres to the next couple of months and were ever they take me!
